Surely not…

It’s my last night. Which is really strange. And although this is the final India-based post, I hope to keep the blog alive – it has been such a beneficial exercise for me and I know I will have more to say (and more pictures to post) as I continue to digest the last few months. But for the time being, this is how I’m feeling about it all:

For the last three months in India I’ve been aware of sometimes possessing an Insider/Outsider status in light of my pre-existing relationship with the country through Abhinav, his family and many of our closest friends. And there have been moments when this sense has set me slightly apart from the general traveller set, particularly those here for the first time for whom India is one enormous ongoing shock to be exhaustively dissected/puzzled over/bitched about at every possible opportunity. Or those people who are here for different reasons to mine. None of whom I judge – let every visitor to India have their own experience – but the differences have gone some way, along the road, to explaining why in many situations I have found myself much more comfortable in the company of Indians that of other travellers. And why, on a number of occasions, I have been asked if, or where, I live in India. Which is always funny because on so many levels I am so obviously foreign to this environment, and yet I do feel a significant degree of comfort here, which is perhaps what people pick up on, and which I can’t attribute to anything specific (unless you believe in reincarnation), aside from the fact that so many important people in my life are from India.

But this pre-existing relationship with India – as I have written before – was largely second-hand; reflected and refracted through the experience of others, through literature and through received imagery. And as I reflect on the last three months I realise, gratefully, that this journey has bequeathed to me what I had hoped for – my own India; a wealth of thought, opinion, emotion, founded on intensely personal and hugely varied experience in this massive land. The confirmation of a long-held intuition that India will play a significant role in my life.

And describing this sense of affirmation that I have gained here is the best way I can find of explaining why, the night before I leave India after such an incredible journey, when my adventure is ending, it feels above all else, so very honestly, like the most exhilarating beginning from which the rest of my life will stem.

Irritants

There are three things which have threatened my sanity throughout this trip and about which I have intended to write but have never found the moment to. And now, given that it’s my last night, the energy and inclination are not there (plus, it will be more fun to shout about it all in person with the people who will understand). But they at least deserve a mention:

1) The absymal quality of English-language “journalism” in India. I don’t have enough breath in my body to fully vent my frustration/disbelief. A few months ago I felt perhaps it wasn’t my place to criticise, but now I feel that attitude is condescending and that I have every right to criticise publications that are so arrogant in their self-promotion and yet fill their pages with articles that have barely scraped through a computerised grammar check, never mind seen an editor’s desk. Do copyeditors exist here? What do they do exactly, aside from reward professional journalists for their ignorance of how to employ articles in English? The overwhelmingly juvenile nature of the press is summed up, for me, by the fact that the Indian Express awards a prize for Letter of the Week. I can’t go on, choked as I am by vitriol.

2) Rubbish, and the Indian proclivity to dropping/throwing it wherever they happen to be. Particularly when it’s middle class Indians paying to travel to some mountainous beauty spot who then proceed to throw their ice-cream wrappers/water bottles/anything and everything, down the side of said mountain, apparently oblivious to the paradox of the situation. And then today the Times of India prints an article crowing about how environmentally aware India is and how concerned the population is about effective waste disposal and recycling. Hah.

3) The particular specie of older-middle aged middle class Indian male who considers himself a conversationalist when he is actually an orator whose mindset is so miniscule there is no room for any other point of view. And who especially relishes encounters with foreign women which he uses as an opportunity to show off his dazzling command of Victorian English and to reassure himself that the world is without doubt in awe of his intellect and powers of perception, particularly when he is talking utter rubbish. In response to any foolhardy attempt I may make to converse, the response will invariably begin with, “No, but..” or “It’s not that…” An extreme case in point: Kaushal and I were having a conversation class in Mussoorie, going for our usual amble around to Lal Tibba, when aforementioned male with wife and daughter in tow comes striding around the corner. He sees me and interrupts Kaushal by stating that he had seen me that morning in the same spot, meditating. I told him that it wasn’t me, that I did sometimes meditate but not in that place and besides, at the time he mentioned, I was in a class. He proceeded unperturbed, modified the time by half an hour, when I was still in the class, and assured us that it had been me. His wife dared to suggest that since I was in a class at the time perhaps he had seen another girl. I agreed with this idea, seeing as it wasn’t me. He dismissed such a ridiculous notion, announced to the world that it had been me and marched off, declaring that he “appreciated my meditation”.

“Hari Om, Madam, Hari Om”: Rishikesh

It’s so hot tonight – there’s no hawa (wind) like on the last few nights. The air is so still that the sounds of puja a couple of miles away shimmer across the river to reach me…

‘I’ve enjoyed Rishikesh. Spending time resting up in the trees on High Bank, then venturing out in the late afternoon. Joining the throng jostling across Laxman Jhula; negotiating tourists, hawkers, jeeps, sadhus, cows, dogs, bikes and then the brief respite of leafy green peace on the way to Ram Jhula. And Ganga Aarti – the nightly puja at Parmath Niketan which is reached through a shopping arcade – a juxtaposition that characterises Rishikesh quite succintly.

It would be easy to be repelled by the extent of the commercialism here, but rather than take offense (and who are we to do so, when it is us off whom it feeds? We’re more than happy to enjoy the rare luxury of muesli and fruit salad for breakfast, yet reserve the right to be repulsed by all the shops [selling the clothes that only we, as foreign travellers, wear in India]), it’s more rewarding to view the commerce as a phenomenon in itself. And even more so to discover that in amongst the fisherman trousers and tulsi necklaces overwhelmingly peaceful religious practices are taking place in a manner unchanged for centuries. Which I find hopeful, in a certain way.

And here, as you are no doubt expecting given my recent burst of Delhi-based productivity, are some pictures!

And more…

Pictures! What a Treat!

I give you Varkala!

The Neem Tree Visit!

AND Madurai, Trichy and Tanjore! (Which actually comprise the only section of this trip I have omitted to write about. And it’s a bit late now. I hope you enjoy the pictures though!)

Ganga Days and Nights

I wrote the following catch-up on the balcony outside my room in Rishikesh (I miss it!):

It’s really hot. In a languid, luxuriant way if you’re privileged enough to have nothing specific to do, and utterly exhausting if you’re not. It’s been a lovely few days with friends on the banks of the Ganga, hidden away up in the trees, eating salad and fruit, feeling happy and rested and nurtured. It’s that perfect evening light-time, a rose-peach warmth cast across the hills, the river, the multi-coloured buildings and the single white mandir on the opposite bank that I can see from here…

The last few days in Mussoorie were hectic – finishing classes and hiking up and down to the bazaar for various things. Most notably to send a parcel home, a process that demands a significant portion of time as you hunt for a tailor willing to accept the menial (but impressive, to me) task of encasing the box in cotton as is required by the post office. But the busyness was a good thing – both Martina and I were ready to move on and staying so occupied made the time fly.

On our last evening we took supplies round to a friend’s flat and spent the evening with Kaushal, learning to cook – chole, baingan ka bharta, bhindi and chapati, to be specific. If I can recreate them to taste as good as they did that night I will rightly consider myself an Indian masterchef. With a small but select repertoire. Although actually, having said that, I shouldn’t lay claim to such a title until I have also mastered pista and nariyal barfi (even though every Indian woman I say that to finds it hilarious that I can be bothered to even try given the apparent tedium of the task. But they fail to register that, unlike virtually every town in India, Bradford-on-Avon suffers from a noticeable dearth of good mithai shops). Then the menu will be complete.

So early on Saturday morning Martina and I bade a gleeful farewell to Dev Dar Woods and its white toast breakfasts, and a more affectionate sort to Mussoorie itself, as we set out in search of the Ganga in its Himalayan home.

We spent the first night in Uttarkashi which at first post-bus sight strikes as a dusty frontier-feeling town, but on further exploration turns out to be a gentle place, nestled in a valley amongst the foothills, with colourful single storey homes and ashrams straddling the Ganga which quietly bubbles its way over rocks, gathering strength for its journey south. Curiosity about the river’s spiritual significance is swiftly satisfied by the orange-robed sadhus ambling along its banks, or taking the obligatory freezing dip in the late afternoon. The scene was a gratifying change from the Christian missionary legacy that remains disspiritingly palpable in much of Mussoorie.

The next morning we opted for a bit of (very relative) luxury and hired our own jeep and driver for the four hour climb/scramble/bounce to Gangotri, 3600m up in the Himalayas. The route follows the Ganga the whole way and is breathtakingly beautiful. Literally. There were moments when looking down into the valley and seeing the water snaking through sand-coloured rocks like a jade green ribbon felt like a glimpse into Eden – or Paradise, Nirvana, the Garden of Enlightenment, whichever imagery you find most accessible or appropriate.

There is, I think, a point at which description of beauty becomes an almost pointless exercise. It can be self-defeating for the writer, who is well aware that she has no hope of doing the particular scene justice, and unfulfilling for the reader especially if the description, through want of alternatives (or sufficient talent), falls victim to cliche and generalisation. Given this (and the fact that I have photos), perhaps it suffices to say that I think, in many ways, Gangotri is the most beautiful place I have ever been (though I don’t want to mislead by omitting to mention that the journey there alse negotiates some kind of engineering project on a gargantuan, mountain-scarring scale).

It is also, between about 3pm and 8am, bone-achingly cold. We set out beneath ridiculously blue sky and bright sunshine on our trek towards Gaumukh – the glacier from which the Ganga begins to drip. After much deliberation we had decided to walk towards Bhojbasa, 14km from Gangotri, and stay the night there, possibly going to Gaumukh early the next morning or possibly just walking back to Gangotri, depending how we felt. When we reached the official entrance to the park we were told to sit down by the ageing civil servant (having his aloo paratha and chai for breakfast) and the standard army of unnecessary staff as they explained (in Hindi! Because our linguistic genius knows no bounds) that the path to Bhojbasa had become obstructed by landslides and that they would advise us not to go. Whipping out the newly acquired (and amazingly useful, my friends) future tense from my extensive grammatical armoury, I explained that we would go anyway and if it proved too difficult we would come back. This assurance that we wouldn’t take any risks was met with predictable approval, and off we went.

Four and a half hours, twelve kilometres and two negotiated minor rockfalls later the path disappeared and I gained a degree of clarity as to the etymology of the term “landslide”. The surface of the mountain had slid so as to incorporate the path, which was now subsumed beneath a shifting mixture of sand and rocks with nothing to catch them save the river itself, hundreds of metres below.

So we decided to turn around. Because in spite of the holy significance of submersion in the Ganga, we just didn’t fancy it at that exact moment. Which meant that we ended up walking 24km in a day, a distance that we hadn’t anticipated. And on the way back the clouds gathered and darkened and began to send us snow! Which was fun. But what a day. What beauty, what air, what shanti. What an amazing privilege to experience an environment so deeply touched by the truest form of natural magic.

Narnia during the thaw.